Thursday, January 14, 2010
So like yeah. i havent been on this in a while. I dont see the need to go on anymore, cuhs like, idkk, theres better stuff to do out there? AHAHA LOL. but whatever mang i'm on now, cuhs partially, archie always tells me that she misses my "deep posts" (LOL.) & I just felt like going on today, cuhs i feel hella loner today, and i don't have anythaang good to do with my time. well i do but i just dont wanna study x]
Don't yuu kinda hate it when yuu hate yuur life, or yuu just feel like crap,
or yuu feel hella sadd for no reason, even though everything in yuur life,
is going well for yuu ? or at least yuu dont have much to complain about ?
I hella hate that feeling. It makes me feel like such a self centered biiiiiich,
and a helluva whiner. & I mean, I dunno how I'd even get that feeling,
cuhs nothings really that wrong right ? but then i still get it & it sucks.
& what makes it worse is when yuu see other people that are hella happy,
or just having fun with their life, then yuu kinda feel bitter & jealous
of how they can keep positive & enjoy their lives, while yuu can't.
Then yuu start overthinking about why yuur acting this way, then yuu
get depressed that yuu can't figure out why yuu are, which makes yuu
even more sad, then it cycles & repeats. O:
& i dunno! LOL. Theres been so much going on lately that i can't really
list em all, & i dunno if i really want to, AHAH, but the thing i noticed,
is that i start noticing this kinda stuff (like what i posted up THERE ^^)
when i'm not busy. & i didnt really realize til now. HAHA.
But yeah. I think even though i might be stressed with other stuff, it kinda
takes away these insecurities that yuu might have about yuu, away,
or at least make yuu forget about it for a while. AHAH. i think thats kindaa
why i always feel like i needa do something, cuhs subconsciously, my minds
telling me to do something so i don't havta get caught up in thiss shit . x]
& yeah. i'm done for today. I don't feel like blog-ranting anymore.
9:24 PM
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